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The following is a welcome address given to entering freshmen at the Boston Conservatory, given by Karl Paulnack, pianist and director of the music division.

Welcome Address, by Karl Paulnack

“One of my parents’ deepest fears, I suspect, is that society would not properly value me as a musician, that I wouldn’t be appreciated. I had very good grades in high school, I was good in science and math, and they imagined that as a doctor or a research chemist or an engineer, I might be more appreciated than I would be as a musician. I still remember my mother’s remark when I announced my decision to apply to music school—she said, “you’re WASTING your SAT scores.” On some level, I think, my parents were not sure themselves what the value of music was, what its purpose was. And they LOVED music, they listened to classical music all the time. They just weren’t really clear about its function. So let me talk about that a little bit, because we live in a society that puts music in the “arts and entertainment” section of the newspaper, and serious music, the kind your kids are about to engage in, has absolutely nothing whatsoever to do with entertainment, in fact it’s the opposite of entertainment. Let me talk a little bit about music, and how it works.

The first people to understand how music really works were the ancient Greeks. And this is going to fascinate you; the Greeks said that music and astronomy were two sides of the same coin. Astronomy was seen as the study of relationships between observable, permanent, external objects, and music was seen as the study of relationships between invisible, internal, hidden objects. Music has a way of finding the big, invisible moving pieces inside our hearts and souls and helping us figure out the position of things inside us. Let me give you some examples of how this works.

One of the most profound musical compositions of all time is the Quartet for the End of Time written by French composer Olivier Messiaen in 1940. Messiaen was 31 years old when France entered the war against Nazi Germany. He was captured by the Germans in June of 1940, sent across Germany in a cattle car and imprisoned in a concentration camp.

He was fortunate to find a sympathetic prison guard who gave him paper and a place to compose. There were three other musicians in the camp, a cellist, a violinist, and a clarinetist, and Messiaen wrote his quartet with these specific players in mind. It was performed in January 1941 for four thousand prisoners and guards in the prison camp. Today it is one of the most famous masterworks in the repertoire.

Given what we have since learned about life in the concentration camps, why would anyone in his right mind waste time and energy writing or playing music? There was barely enough energy on a good day to find food and water, to avoid a beating, to stay warm, to escape torture—why would anyone bother with music? And yet—from the camps, we have poetry, we have music, we have visual art; it wasn’t just this one fanatic Messiaen; many, many people created art. Why? Well, in a place where people are only focused on survival, on the bare necessities, the obvious conclusion is that art must be, somehow, essential for life. The camps were without money, without hope, without commerce, without rec reation, without basic respect, but they were not without art. Art is part of survival; art is part of the human spirit, an unquenchable expression of who we are. Art is one of the ways in which we say, “I am alive, and my life has meaning.”

On September 12, 2001 I was a resident of Manhattan. That morning I reached a new understanding of my art and its relationship to the world. I sat down at the piano that morning at 10 AM to practice as was my daily routine; I did it by force of habit, without thinking about it. I lifted the cover on the keyboard, and opened my music, and put my hands on the keys and took my hands off the keys. And I sat there and thought, does this even matter? Isn’t this completely irrelevant? Playing the piano right now, given what happened in this city yesterday, seems silly, absurd, irreverent, pointless. Why am I here? What place has a musician in this moment in time? Who needs a piano player right now? I was completely lost.

And then I, along with the rest of New York, went through the journey of getting through that week. I did not play the piano that day, and in fact I contemplated briefly whether I would ever want to play the piano again. And then I observed how we got through the day.

At least in my neighborhood, we didn’t shoot hoops or play Scrabble. We didn’t play cards to pass the time, we didn’t watch TV, we didn’t shop, we most certainly did not go to the mall. The first organized activity that I saw in New York, that same day, was singing. People sang. People sang around fire houses, people sang “We Shall Overcome”. Lots of people sang America the Beautiful. The first organized public event that I remember was the Brahms Requiem, later that week, at Lincoln Center, with the New York Philharmonic. The first organized public expression of grief, our first communal response to that historic event, was a concert. That was the beginning of a sense that life might go on. The US Military secured the airspace, but recovery was led by the arts, and by music in particular, that very night.

From these two experiences, I have come to understand that music is not part of “arts and entertainment” as the newspaper section would have us believe. It’s not a luxury, a lavish thing that we fund from leftovers of our budgets, not a plaything or an amusement or a pass time. Music is a basic need of human survival. Music is one of the ways we make sense of our lives, one of the ways in which we express feelings when we have no words, a way for us to understand things with our hearts when we cannot with our minds.

Some of you may know Samuel Barber’s heartwrenchingly beautiful piece Adagio for Strings. If you don’t know it by that name, then some of you may know it as the background music which accompanied the Oliver Stone movie Platoon, a film about the Vietnam War. If you know that piece of music either way, you know it has the ability to crack your heart open like a walnut; it can make you cry over sadness you didn’t know you had. Music can slip beneath our conscious reality to get at what’s really going on inside us the way a good therapist does.

I bet that you have never been to a wedding where there was absolutely no music. There might have been only a little music, there might have been some really bad music, but I bet you there was some music. And something very predictable happens at weddings—people get all pent up with all kinds of emotions, and then there’s some musical moment where the action of the wedding stops and someone sings or plays the flute or something. And even if the music is lame, even if the quality isn’t good, predictably 30 or 40 percent of the people who are going to cry at a wedding cry a couple of moments after the music starts. Why? The Greeks. Music allows us to move around those big invisible pieces of ourselves and rearrange our insides so that we can express what we feel even when we can’t talk about it. Can you imagine watching Indiana Jones or Superman or Star Wars with the dialogue but no music? What is it about the music swelling up at just the right moment in ET so that all the softies in the audience start crying at exactly the same moment? I guarantee you if you showed the movie with the music stripped out, it wouldn’t happen that way. The Greeks: Music is the understanding of the relationship between invisible internal objects.
 
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I’ll give you one more example, the story of the most important concert of my life. I must tell you I have played a little less than a thousand concerts in my life so far. I have played in places that I thought were important. I like playing in Carnegie Hall; I enjoyed playing in Paris; it made me very happy to please the critics in St. Petersburg. I have played for people I thought were important; music critics of major newspapers, foreign heads of state. The most important concert of my entire life took place in a nursing home in Fargo, ND, about 4 years ago.

I was playing with a very dear friend of mine who is a violinist. We began, as we often do, with Aaron Copland’s Sonata, which was written during World War II and dedicated to a young friend of Copland’s, a young pilot who was shot down during the war. Now we often talk to our audiences about the pieces we are going to play rather than providing them with written program notes. But in this case, because we began the concert with this piece, we decided to talk about the piece later in the program and to just come out and play the music without explanation.

Midway through the piece, an elderly man seated in a wheelchair near the front of the concert hall began to weep. This man, whom I later met, was clearly a soldier—even in his 70’s, it was clear from his buzz-cut hair, square jaw and general demeanor that he had spent a good deal of his life in the military. I thought it a little bit odd that someone would be moved to tears by that particular movement of that particular piece, but it wasn’t the first time I’ve heard crying in a concert and we went on with the concert and finished the piece.

When we came out to play the next piece on the program, we decided to talk about both the first and second pieces, and we described the circumstances in which the Copland was written and mentioned its dedication to a downed pilot. The man in the front of the audience became so disturbed that he had to leave the auditorium. I honestly figured that we would not see him again, but he did come backstage afterwards, tears and all, to explain himself.

What he told us was this: “During World War II, I was a pilot, and I was in an aerial combat situation where one of my team’s planes was hit. I watched my friend bail out, and watched his parachute open, but the Japanese planes which had engaged us returned and machine gunned across the parachute chords so as to separate the parachute from the pilot, and I watched my friend drop away into the ocean, realizing that he was lost. I have not thought about this for many years, but during that first piece of music you played, this memory returned to me so vividly that it was as though I was reliving it. I didn’t understand why this was happening, why now, but then when you came out to explain that this piece of music was written to commemorate a lost pilot, it was a little more than I could handle. How does the music do that? How did it find those feelings and those memories in me?”

Remember the Greeks: music is the study of invisible relationships between internal objects. This concert in Fargo was the most important work I have ever done. For me to play for this old soldier and help him connect, somehow, with Aaron Copland, and to connect their memories of their lost friends, to help him remember and mourn his friend, this is my work. This is why music matters.

What follows is part of the talk I will give to this year’s freshman class when I welcome them a few days from now. The responsibility I will charge your sons and daughters with is this:

“If we were a medical school, and you were here as a med student practicing appendectomies, you’d take your work very seriously because you would imagine that some night at two AM someone is going to waltz into your emergency room and you’re going to have to save their life. Well, my friends, someday at 8 PM someone is going to walk into your concert hall and bring you a mind that is confused, a heart that is overwhelmed, a soul that is weary. Whether they go out whole again will depend partly on how well you do your craft.

You’re not here to become an entertainer, and you don’t have to sell yourself. The truth is you don’t have anything to sell; being a musician isn’t about dispensing a product, like selling used Chevies. I’m not an entertainer; I’m a lot closer to a paramedic, a firefighter, a rescue worker. You’re here to become a sort of therapist for the human soul, a spiritual version of a chiropractor, physical therapist, someone who works with our insides to see if they get things to line up, to see if we can come into harmony with ourselves and be healthy and happy and well.

Frankly, ladies and gentlemen, I expect you not only to master music; I expect you to save the planet. If there is a future wave of wellness on this planet, of harmony, of peace, of an end to war, of mutual understanding, of equality, of fairness, I don’t expect it will come from a government, a military force or a corporation. I no longer even expect it to come from the religions of the world, which together seem to have brought us as much war as they have peace. If there is a future of peace for humankind, if there is to be an understanding of how these invisible, internal things should fit together, I expect it will come from the artists, because that’s what we do. As in the concentration camp and the evening of 9/11, the artists are the ones who might be able to help us with our internal, invisible lives.”
 
Thanks for posting this. I will share this with my friends, musicians and non-musicians alike.
 
this was very, very inspirational indeed. really makes you wanna rethink why we compose/play/perform. thanks for posting this :)
 
Sometimes amidst all the cynicism and mundaneness of life we forget what it was that led us to music in the first place. That helped me to remember the beauty and the power of music when its harnessed properly. Thank you.
 
Crap

I'm sorry.

I think he paints a picture that is a little too rosy probably because it is for the first year students coming into the term. If he wanted to really tell them the truth, he should say that there are more musicians starving and desperately trying to make ends meet than there are those earning money from their craft.

The reality of it is that if you can manage to make it to a private music institution, chances are you probably are loaded to begin with and are born into a privileged life that allows you the privileged of music education. There are so many musicians out there that had to give up their dreams simply because they could not afford such exorbitant fees and those that stuck to their guns had to find a way to pay through their noses. I was one such and the truth is, the sad truth is if he truly felt that way about music, then teach it for FREE.

I remember my journey to a music education involved one heartbreak after another, i.e scholarship funds not sufficient, working illegally in a foreign country just to pay fees to a school that doesn't give a crap as long as they get money, having to endure a toothache for 7 months because got no money to go to dentist and in the end lose the tooth, being sick for long periods because can't afford to go to doctor, not having light in your room for 6 bloody months because you can't even afford to change light bulb. And I think my experience wasn't as hard as some of my friends'.

Bottom line, the knowledge in music is not a lot. You can actually learn it by yourself in your lifetime. Its not like studying engineering, medicine or law which is a thousand times more than music. Especially if you come from Singapore cause I think even O levels in Singapore is probably harder than studying music.

The thing you should take after going through the sh*t and surviving is that you get to live your life doing something that you love to do even if it doesn't pay that well. Then look at the people around you and see if they ever had that chance or strong enough desire.

Just my 2 cents
 
Jerseystar:

I sympathize with your struggles and respect what you've been through, but I think you're missing the point. This isn't about formal music education. This is about the value and role of music in our lives, and how it can make the world a better place. You don't have to have a formal music education to do that.

I would go so far as to say that the speaker is choosing to speak about this to his students precisely because he doesn't want them to study music without passion. He wants to make sure that everyone who has the opportunity to study music makes the most out of that opportunity, and that they aren't wasted on people who do it without a sense of purpose and obligation to community.

But it doesn't mean that if you don't study music formally, that this doesn't apply to you. Each and every one of us can choose to be a "therapist for the human soul, a spiritual version of a chiropractor, physical therapist, someone who works with our insides to see if they get things to line up, to see if we can come into harmony with ourselves and be healthy and happy and well."
 
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Dude

if you thought my post was about a formal music education then you misread my original post.

My point: Don't do music for what others tell you it should or could be for. Just do it.


After you've done it long enough, what you do it for doesn't matter. You know how some women shop simply because that's the only way they know how to feel better? That's why I do it. I'm pretty sure if I was in a modern concentration camp say Guantanamo Bay, I won't compose something for my fellow inmates but I'd do it just breathe.

New points:

1. If you can't do teach.
2. If you can't afford to go to music college, don't fret. Those who can afford usually can't play (got no talent)
3. Better way is to understudy with a professional. Cost less and learn more.

Peace out
 
Jerseystar:

Don't do music for what others tell you it should or could be for. Just do it.

At the end of the day, we are the ones who make the choices in our lives. But that doesn't mean that other people's input isn't valuable.

After you've done it long enough, what you do it for doesn't matter.

I respect your right to your opinion, but personally I think that we should all have reason and purpose in our lives. The day we collapse into mindless routine without thinking about why we do what we do is the day we lose our self-awareness, and we might as well be robots.

You know how some women shop simply because that's the only way they know how to feel better?That's why I do it.

The only reason why "that's the only way we know how to feel better" is because we've been brought up not to think for ourselves, and to act on our impulses (which are very easily influenced by the media, our peers and the world around us when we choose to be ignorant about it)

Retail therapy is not therapy at all. It's like a drug; a short-term high that makes you feel better for a short while. But it wears off, drains your wallet, and leaves you constantly craving for more of something that will never satisfy you. I think this only reinforces my point about how important it is to have purpose in your life.

I'm pretty sure if I was in a modern concentration camp say Guantanamo Bay, I won't compose something for my fellow inmates but I'd do it just breathe.


I don't understand what you mean here.

1. If you can't do teach.

First of all, what a disgusting and blatant generalization. There are many, many talented individuals in countless fields who teach because they are passionate about it and want to share their gifts and talents with others.

And even if what you say is true, haven't we all learnt amazing lessons from people who may not be talented or proficient at what they do? Teaching is a beautiful and blessed profession, and I have lots of respect for teachers world-wide who inspire others. A teacher who is able to inspire his students to achieve great things is far more valuable to me and to society at large than a man who has accomplished plenty but shared nothing.

2. If you can't afford to go to music college, don't fret. Those who can afford usually can't play (got no talent)

To expand on your woman-going-shopping analogy, you are being the woman who points at other women in better clothes than you and whispering, "she sleeps with rich men to pay for those! That whore!" In fact is that it doesn't matter how expensive your clothes are. Some of the most stylish women buy their clothes at the flea market. There are rich women who are fashionable, rich women who are not, and there are the women who sleep their way to the money. But what do you think everyone thinks about that annoying, sour and unpleasant little gossip who goes around bitching about other people?

I don't mean to be harshly judgmental, but I'm of the opinion that you seem to be carrying some excess baggage with you from your past experiences,and that's not going to do you any favours in life.

3. Better way is to understudy with a professional. Cost less and learn more.

There is no such thing as "a better way". Different strokes for different folks. If there was truly a "best way", everybody would be doing it.

peace and love,
visa
 
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